A few things really freak me out. The biggest is that I am afraid of school. Sometimes when I think about going back, I get a little panicky. I've had panic attacks before classes and test in the past. But I refuse to let this get the best of me, I will be returning to school this year! And if my fear gets to be a bit to much to handle I've already looked into getting counseling. I will get my degree and I'll be the best early childhood educator I can be!
I am seriously afraid of being home alone at night and someone coming in to ransack the place and potentially harm me. For this reason I know that if I wasn't married right now, I would have a roommate and or a dog. Along with a serious alarm system! (I think people and dogs in the home and alarms will at the very least, slow someone down or maybe make them think twice...) Aside from the price for sq ft, we chose this apartment for two reasons, one it's controlled access into the building and two, because of the security system. Well a new management company came in and replaced all the windows which was good and bad. Good because the new windows are energy efficient, bad because they had to disconnect the alarm and they haven't reconnected it. It's so bad that I'm already dreading a weekend coming up where Husband is going out of town and I'll be alone... If we had our 2nd bedroom set up as a guest room instead of an office, I'd invite my friend Lizzie to spend the night! Or if I had thought about it sooner I would have invited my sister to come up and had her bring her little one (since the LO still flies free for a few more months!) Hmmm it might not be too late... I'll ask her today! Anyways back to my fear - I have these crazy Panic Room (jodie foster movie) dreams. I've even told Husband that if we have the opportunity to build our house from the ground up, I want a panic room installed.
My final biggest fear is not living my life to the fullest. I've only got one life to life and I want to make the most of it!
Rational or irrational these are my biggest fears :-) Welcome to my world people!
I'll be honest, I'm UNEASY being home at night without my husband here... especially because I tend to sleep with my window open. We do have a big dog (Rotweiller) so that helps. We also have an alarm system.
ReplyDeleteI'd specifically request them fix it post haste so that you can at least rest easy until he's back!
I listed that home alone as one of my fears too, I don't have an alarm system either.
ReplyDeleteI have never feared being home alone at night. I did used to fear being home asleep in the daytime (as I was a night shifter) and I read a report about how lots of burglaries happen in the daytime when they think everyone is away at work. I used to sleep with a screw driver under my pillow. Crazy, huh
ReplyDeleteLOL I'm glad to know I'm not just paranoid! Paula - that isn't crazy at all. If I didn't sleep so wild I'd probably do the same when Hubs isn't home.
ReplyDeleteApril - I've asked them when they'll fix it - lots of run around from the new management company. I don't think they intend to. At least not any time soon. Hopefully they'll change their minds.
I am afraid of not living life to the fullest also. There are so many things that I want to do...and haven't even come close...
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